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Summer, you could always try the ‘Paula’ approach and be virtually beastly! Where’s that bat? Having just ceased a major renovation (not finished – we ran out of cash, and I of energy) I know well the drag. Especially when all around you are smoking like fucking chimneys. Run amuck with an axe – it works a treat. Seriously, tell me more about "St John’s Wort" Iago/Martin One month, two weeks, three days, 16 hours, 29 minutes and 50 seconds. 1430 cigarettes not smoked, saving $498.33. Life saved: 4 days, 23 hours, 10 minutes.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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> >Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in >(entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Some tips against depression: > Stay active. you cannot be depressed if you are doing something.
sure you can. And I am active. I do yoga and go to the gym and the depression still hangs over me. Granted, it does reduce it. > Sit or stand bolt upright and breath deeply. Look straight forward. > It’s not possible to feel depressed in this posture.
Again….still depressed, just not as badly. :) But I understand where you are coming from. > Plan activities for the following weeks. Activities that have to be > done as well as recreational ones.
Does schoolwork count as activities? LOL I already have a very planned out week, from schoolwork to going to the gym. >I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and >48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 >minutes. > Wonderful meter. Way to go.
Thanks Karl and thanks for the advice. Although none of it truly eliminates depression, it does help to ease it a bit. And every tiny bit helps. :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 43 minutes and 5 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.83. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> >Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > Third day is the worst. Hang in there!
Oh I know it is Christa! :) I hung in and have been feeling pretty good ever since. Thanks! I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 33 minutes and 19 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.81. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes > and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 > hours, 5 minutes. > Not a bad rant, as rants go 
Sorry about the depression but it sounds > like you have a good plan to get past it. > Day 3 was my personal worst.
Day 3 seems to be the worst day for everyone. I knew it was coming, I guess part of me was really just hoping it wouldn’t. Ah well…it’s passed now and I feel pretty good. :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 34 minutes and 58 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.81. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> Sounds familiar, I felt just like that! > This (mood), too, shall pass.
Oh it did! :) > Get back on the SJW, and give it time, it can take a few weeks to start > working.
I know. I’ve been off and on it for almost a year now and I know how well it works. I take it in combination with b6 and b12 and they work wonders. I still am not back on it though. I need to get up to the drugstore and buy more. I think I’ll do that this week. > Maybe take the patch off at night, for better sleep. Or (this is just an > idea I thought of) cut the patch in half, put half on before bed and the > other half on when you wake up (if you’re one of those that need the > patch on while you sleep).
The dreams have passed. I’m finally sleeping through the night. Thank gawd. I have only had one nightmare with the patch so far…and it was a doozy. I woke up to a soaked pillow and couldn’t seem to stop sobbing. I don’t ever remember having a dream like that before. > Visualize sawing the nicodemon in half.
Hmm…the "nicodemon" idea never really worked for me. I had problems removing my problems from myself and placing them on the shoulders of some infamous "demon". > Cry.
Oh I’ve done lots of that! :) > Post.
Now why didn’t I read this sooner? I’ve been out of AS3 for over a week and I have a zillion and one posts to catch up on. Expect a flood of posts from me tonight. :) > You’ll feel better
I already do. Thanks Kita. I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 11 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.82. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> Summer, if you are afraid of the needles find an acupuncturist that does > "colorpuncture" Mine does both and btw – the needles do not hurt. I don’t > feel them at all. Yoga should work. I just finished a beginner’s class after > 4 yrs. of absence from practicing yoga because I had a spinal fusion in 1998 > and was forbidden to use any exercises that involved the neck. You are > correct that it helps. I love the breathing exercises as they, if done > properly, help calm the mind. Starting my advanced class this coming Tuesday > this time.
Wow PD…it’s taken me long enough to get back to this…I’m so sorry. I just haven’t had time lately to be reading and posting much and now have 1700+ messages to catch up on! Good lord! I made a note of "colourpuncture" and will definitely look into it if I ever feel like I need it. I have my good and my bad days, although lately it’s been more good than bad. :) I don’t go to a yoga class or anything like that though, I just do it in my own home with a video. One day when I feel comfortable with it, I’ll join a yoga class. I don’t know if it do it properly or well…but it works wonders for calming me down. :) Thanks for the info on acupuncture PD! :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 32 minutes and 7 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.80. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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LOL I can just imagine you peeing out the window! hehehehe… Sorry..tired mind, much vodka…just tickled my funnybone! Paula
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > Summer P sneezed and it sounded like: >> sounds like recovery. >> the big thing is…you’re talking about it! > If I didn’t talk about it (even to just myself) I think I’d explode > Frank. I need to get my shitty moods out of my system or I > turndownright evil. :) > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 38 > minutes and 50 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.48. Life > saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. > ayup. I’m all about that reading and posting thing hehehe folks’ve probly > figured out my posting goes up when my resistance goes down. It keeps the > fingers busy. > Today while road tripping to one of my stores I noticed a roaring noise in my > left ear and realized I’d lowered the window a bit when I got in the car… as I > always did when I got in, after all, the smoke had to go somewhere didn’t it? > LOL I rolled up the window and suddenly the heat in the car seemed to work > better hehehe since it weren’t all goin’ out they window I imagine lol. > I had a chuckle, then a tic-tack, then a sip of water and another and another… > I may never be able to make a long trip again in the car… that or I’ll be > lowering the window for a totally different reason LOL. Toooooo much water. > I haven’t smoked in: Two days, 22 hours, 59 minutes. That comes to 59 cigarettes > not smoked, saving me a whopping $11.09. > — > Rich G. http://www.geocities.com/simplerichg/index.html > http://simplerich.diaryland.com/ > "You can’t go around building a better world for people. Only people > can build a better world for people. Otherwise it’s just a cage." > — (Terry Pratchett, Witches Abroad)
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summer, why not get back on your st. johns wort? why not take that patch off before bed? keep posting and bitching about that damn — read and post daily, it works! rosie The past gives us experience and memories; the present gives us challenges and opportunities; the future gives us vision and hope. –William Arthur Ward
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now).
<snip> > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~
Hang in there, Summer. It’ll get better, you know. All you have to do is not smoke and do all those things that help distract you from it. You’re on your worst day today, IMHO. *hugs* — BinnieBee – A Proud Old Fogie! %% (——) ( >__< ) ^^ ~~ ^^ ~f3as3~ Quit since 11/01/2001 http://photos.yahoo.com/binniebeeus
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Summer P sneezed and it sounded like: > sounds like recovery. > the big thing is…you’re talking about it! > If I didn’t talk about it (even to just myself) I think I’d explode > Frank. I need to get my shitty moods out of my system or I > turndownright evil. :) > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 38 > minutes and 50 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.48. Life > saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes.
ayup. I’m all about that reading and posting thing hehehe folks’ve probly figured out my posting goes up when my resistance goes down. It keeps the fingers busy. Today while road tripping to one of my stores I noticed a roaring noise in my left ear and realized I’d lowered the window a bit when I got in the car… as I always did when I got in, after all, the smoke had to go somewhere didn’t it? LOL I rolled up the window and suddenly the heat in the car seemed to work better hehehe since it weren’t all goin’ out they window I imagine lol. I had a chuckle, then a tic-tack, then a sip of water and another and another… I may never be able to make a long trip again in the car… that or I’ll be lowering the window for a totally different reason LOL. Toooooo much water. I haven’t smoked in: Two days, 22 hours, 59 minutes. That comes to 59 cigarettes not smoked, saving me a whopping $11.09. — Rich G. http://www.geocities.com/simplerichg/index.html http://simplerich.diaryland.com/ "You can’t go around building a better world for people. Only people can build a better world for people. Otherwise it’s just a cage." — (Terry Pratchett, Witches Abroad)
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Sounds familiar, I felt just like that! This (mood), too, shall pass. Get back on the SJW, and give it time, it can take a few weeks to start working. Maybe take the patch off at night, for better sleep. Or (this is just an idea I thought of) cut the patch in half, put half on before bed and the other half on when you wake up (if you’re one of those that need the patch on while you sleep). Visualize sawing the nicodemon in half. Cry. Post. You’ll feel better Kita – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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>Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in >(entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now).
Some tips against depression: Stay active. you cannot be depressed if you are doing something. Sit or stand bolt upright and breath deeply. Look straight forward. It’s not possible to feel depressed in this posture. Plan activities for the following weeks. Activities that have to be done as well as recreational ones. >I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and >48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 >minutes.
Wonderful meter. Way to go. Karl
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Hugs for Summer….. ((((((((((((Summer)))))))))))) cigarettes suck quitting sucks It will soon be over, and the sun will shine again, the clouds will blow away, and you will be singing and dancing your way down the street again! With hope and heart, Kathleen *HOF+ — The Road goes ever on and on Down from the door where it began. Now far ahead the Road has gone, And I must follow, if I can, Pursuing it with eager feet, Until it joins some larger way Where many paths and errands meet. And whither then? I cannot say. ~ J.R.R. : Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in : (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). : Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, : but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? : I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for : awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m : just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately : need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home : renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in : and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it : is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to : tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea : retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! : That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. : : Just felt like complaining…sorry all. : : I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and : 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 : minutes. : : — : Cheers : ~Summer~ : * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * : See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg : * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * : :
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> Hi, Summer!
Hi Giggles! > Get back on the wort, sooner rather than later, and keep doing that Yoga you > talked about. Meditation has been great for my depression.
Just did a round of yoga about 30 minutes ago and am going to go to the gym soon too. Feeling a little better now. It just sort of snuck up on me today. But that’s how it always happens for me…fine one minute and really low the next. I’ll get back on the wort tonight…my miracle mix of pills! hehe > Nice rant
More like a whine, but we can call it a rant if you want. ;) Thanks elle! :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 44 minutes and 39 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.50. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> > Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick
in <snip> > Complain away. Typing, gabbing, whining, open jars of pickles. . .all > things that distract us from us. Anything that gets us away from the > unhappy part of our brain is a good thing. Deep breathing and mindless > staring are great. Mindless anything for that matter, repetitious tapping > of a pencil. . .drives others crazy, but, what the heck, share your hell.
Ah…the ever elusive Alan finally pokes his head in! Nice to see you around! I’ve kept myself busy this afternoon and I’m coming up again…just sometimes sees so much easier to crawl into bed and just sleep for a day. But that doesn’t beat it, it just puts it on hold for a while. Keeping busy helps for me. Off to the gym in a bit. Thanks for the input Alan…poke in here a little more often. I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 47 minutes and 29 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.50. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Alan53 > (Peering out from his own hell, blinks, scurries back to familiar ground) > 2yr + + + > smoking is no longer part of my equation, or my hell >
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Summer, if you are afraid of the needles find an acupuncturist that does "colorpuncture" Mine does both and btw – the needles do not hurt. I don’t feel them at all. Yoga should work. I just finished a beginner’s class after 4 yrs. of absence from practicing yoga because I had a spinal fusion in 1998 and was forbidden to use any exercises that involved the neck. You are correct that it helps. I love the breathing exercises as they, if done properly, help calm the mind. Starting my advanced class this coming Tuesday this time. Purpledawn Two days, 17 hours, 6 minutes and 52 seconds. 54 cigarettes not smoked, saving $7.73. Life saved: 4 hours, 30 minutes.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Same here, but I expected it. Have not motivation to do anything. As it > happened I had a noon appointment with the acupuncturist and he did a > treatment for anxiety for over an hour. It was , as always, very relaxing > and I feel 100 percent better right now. So now I will go and clean out > the > basement because the painter will be here on Monday to do his thing and > after that I will take a much deserved nap. > Summer, have you ever checked out acupuncture? I get a treatment every 2 > weeks . It really works. > I expected it too PD, but I think a part of me was REALLY hoping it wouldn’t > happen. Although I remember my last quit and it kicked in around the 2nd or > 3rd day too (although I wasn’t on st johns wort then so it was much much > worse). I’m heading out to the gym in a little while and that should help a > bit. I just did a little bit of yoga and am actually feeling a little bit > better. Yoga’s awesome. I just started it, but it’s so calming. I’ve > never tried acupuncture though. I have thought of it, but I REALLY really > hate needles…so that keeps me well away from it. Although if it ever gets > too bad I’ll look into it. > Thanks PD! :) > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 42 minutes and 9 > seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.49. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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> Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes > and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 > hours, 5 minutes.
Not a bad rant, as rants go Sorry about the depression but it sounds like you have a good plan to get past it. Day 3 was my personal worst. — mc I haven’t lost my mind, It is backed up on disk somewhere. http://mcgonzalez.home.att.net/meter.html
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Summer P sneezed and it sounded like: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to > kick in (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a > week now). Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the > patch. I sleep yes, but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I > wake up after every dream?? I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel > like smacking someone around for awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit > is in no danger because of this, I’m just feeling so totally drained > and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately need some sleep but can’t > because I promised to help mom do some home renovations. She’s too > nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in and said I’d do > the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it is….this > is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to tell > her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! > DUH! That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 > minutes and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life > saved: 2 hours, 5 minutes.
Like the meter. Hate depression. I’m starting to think that may be what trips me up. I’m too stupid on my own, but I had help with this one hehehe. My previous three quits all made it until fall… then I started smoking and I’m SO not a fall person. I’m not clinical in my depression, but it’s definitely blue funk time until the first snow fall or good hard frost and then I tend to snap out of it. lol I’m with you on the patch dreams thing. usually the dreams are merely weird, but maybe due to work stress they’re downright unpleasant this time… and I too seem to be waking up after each one. *sigh* Hang tough. I like seein’ yer meter. — Rich G. http://www.geocities.com/simplerichg/index.html http://simplerich.diaryland.com/ "You can’t go around building a better world for people. Only people can build a better world for people. Otherwise it’s just a cage." — (Terry Pratchett, Witches Abroad)
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. . . . > . . .Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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Complain away. Typing, gabbing, whining, open jars of pickles. . .all things that distract us from us. Anything that gets us away from the unhappy part of our brain is a good thing. Deep breathing and mindless staring are great. Mindless anything for that matter, repetitious tapping of a pencil. . .drives others crazy, but, what the heck, share your hell. Alan53 (Peering out from his own hell, blinks, scurries back to familiar ground) 2yr + + + smoking is no longer part of my equation, or my hell
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> sounds like recovery. > the big thing is…you’re talking about it!
If I didn’t talk about it (even to just myself) I think I’d explode Frank. I need to get my shitty moods out of my system or I turndownright evil. :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 38 minutes and 50 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.48. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> Same here, but I expected it. Have not motivation to do anything. As it > happened I had a noon appointment with the acupuncturist and he did a > treatment for anxiety for over an hour. It was , as always, very relaxing > and I feel 100 percent better right now. So now I will go and clean out the > basement because the painter will be here on Monday to do his thing and > after that I will take a much deserved nap. > Summer, have you ever checked out acupuncture? I get a treatment every 2 > weeks . It really works.
I expected it too PD, but I think a part of me was REALLY hoping it wouldn’t happen. Although I remember my last quit and it kicked in around the 2nd or 3rd day too (although I wasn’t on st johns wort then so it was much much worse). I’m heading out to the gym in a little while and that should help a bit. I just did a little bit of yoga and am actually feeling a little bit better. Yoga’s awesome. I just started it, but it’s so calming. I’ve never tried acupuncture though. I have thought of it, but I REALLY really hate needles…so that keeps me well away from it. Although if it ever gets too bad I’ll look into it. Thanks PD! :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 42 minutes and 9 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.49. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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Hi, Summer! Get back on the wort, sooner rather than later, and keep doing that Yoga you talked about. Meditation has been great for my depression. Nice rant hugs, elle
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. Just felt like complaining…sorry all. I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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sounds like recovery. the big thing is…you’re talking about it! odat, frank Five years, four months, 13 hours, 36 minutes and 40 seconds. 97428 cigarettes not smoked, saving $14,614.56. Life saved: 48 weeks, 2 days, 7 hours, 0 minutes.
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Same here, but I expected it. Have not motivation to do anything. As it happened I had a noon appointment with the acupuncturist and he did a treatment for anxiety for over an hour. It was , as always, very relaxing and I feel 100 percent better right now. So now I will go and clean out the basement because the painter will be here on Monday to do his thing and after that I will take a much deserved nap. Summer, have you ever checked out acupuncture? I get a treatment every 2 weeks . It really works. Purpledawn Two days, 13 hours, 57 minutes and 34 seconds. 51 cigarettes not smoked, saving $7.36. Life saved: 4 hours, 15 minutes.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. Just felt like complaining…sorry all. I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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sounds like recovery. the big thing is…you’re talking about it! odat, frank Five years, four months, 13 hours, 36 minutes and 40 seconds. 97428 cigarettes not smoked, saving $14,614.56. Life saved: 48 weeks, 2 days, 7 hours, 0 minutes.
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Same here, but I expected it. Have not motivation to do anything. As it happened I had a noon appointment with the acupuncturist and he did a treatment for anxiety for over an hour. It was , as always, very relaxing and I feel 100 percent better right now. So now I will go and clean out the basement because the painter will be here on Monday to do his thing and after that I will take a much deserved nap. Summer, have you ever checked out acupuncture? I get a treatment every 2 weeks . It really works. Purpledawn Two days, 13 hours, 57 minutes and 34 seconds. 51 cigarettes not smoked, saving $7.36. Life saved: 4 hours, 15 minutes.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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Hi, Summer! Get back on the wort, sooner rather than later, and keep doing that Yoga you talked about. Meditation has been great for my depression. Nice rant hugs, elle
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. . . . > . . .Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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Complain away. Typing, gabbing, whining, open jars of pickles. . .all things that distract us from us. Anything that gets us away from the unhappy part of our brain is a good thing. Deep breathing and mindless staring are great. Mindless anything for that matter, repetitious tapping of a pencil. . .drives others crazy, but, what the heck, share your hell. Alan53 (Peering out from his own hell, blinks, scurries back to familiar ground) 2yr + + + smoking is no longer part of my equation, or my hell
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> sounds like recovery. > the big thing is…you’re talking about it!
If I didn’t talk about it (even to just myself) I think I’d explode Frank. I need to get my shitty moods out of my system or I turndownright evil. :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 38 minutes and 50 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.48. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> Same here, but I expected it. Have not motivation to do anything. As it > happened I had a noon appointment with the acupuncturist and he did a > treatment for anxiety for over an hour. It was , as always, very relaxing > and I feel 100 percent better right now. So now I will go and clean out the > basement because the painter will be here on Monday to do his thing and > after that I will take a much deserved nap. > Summer, have you ever checked out acupuncture? I get a treatment every 2 > weeks . It really works.
I expected it too PD, but I think a part of me was REALLY hoping it wouldn’t happen. Although I remember my last quit and it kicked in around the 2nd or 3rd day too (although I wasn’t on st johns wort then so it was much much worse). I’m heading out to the gym in a little while and that should help a bit. I just did a little bit of yoga and am actually feeling a little bit better. Yoga’s awesome. I just started it, but it’s so calming. I’ve never tried acupuncture though. I have thought of it, but I REALLY really hate needles…so that keeps me well away from it. Although if it ever gets too bad I’ll look into it. Thanks PD! :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 42 minutes and 9 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.49. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> Hi, Summer!
Hi Giggles! > Get back on the wort, sooner rather than later, and keep doing that Yoga you > talked about. Meditation has been great for my depression.
Just did a round of yoga about 30 minutes ago and am going to go to the gym soon too. Feeling a little better now. It just sort of snuck up on me today. But that’s how it always happens for me…fine one minute and really low the next. I’ll get back on the wort tonight…my miracle mix of pills! hehe > Nice rant
More like a whine, but we can call it a rant if you want. ;) Thanks elle! :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 44 minutes and 39 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.50. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> > Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick
in <snip> > Complain away. Typing, gabbing, whining, open jars of pickles. . .all > things that distract us from us. Anything that gets us away from the > unhappy part of our brain is a good thing. Deep breathing and mindless > staring are great. Mindless anything for that matter, repetitious tapping > of a pencil. . .drives others crazy, but, what the heck, share your hell.
Ah…the ever elusive Alan finally pokes his head in! Nice to see you around! I’ve kept myself busy this afternoon and I’m coming up again…just sometimes sees so much easier to crawl into bed and just sleep for a day. But that doesn’t beat it, it just puts it on hold for a while. Keeping busy helps for me. Off to the gym in a bit. Thanks for the input Alan…poke in here a little more often. I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 47 minutes and 29 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.50. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Alan53 > (Peering out from his own hell, blinks, scurries back to familiar ground) > 2yr + + + > smoking is no longer part of my equation, or my hell >
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Summer, if you are afraid of the needles find an acupuncturist that does "colorpuncture" Mine does both and btw – the needles do not hurt. I don’t feel them at all. Yoga should work. I just finished a beginner’s class after 4 yrs. of absence from practicing yoga because I had a spinal fusion in 1998 and was forbidden to use any exercises that involved the neck. You are correct that it helps. I love the breathing exercises as they, if done properly, help calm the mind. Starting my advanced class this coming Tuesday this time. Purpledawn Two days, 17 hours, 6 minutes and 52 seconds. 54 cigarettes not smoked, saving $7.73. Life saved: 4 hours, 30 minutes.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Same here, but I expected it. Have not motivation to do anything. As it > happened I had a noon appointment with the acupuncturist and he did a > treatment for anxiety for over an hour. It was , as always, very relaxing > and I feel 100 percent better right now. So now I will go and clean out > the > basement because the painter will be here on Monday to do his thing and > after that I will take a much deserved nap. > Summer, have you ever checked out acupuncture? I get a treatment every 2 > weeks . It really works. > I expected it too PD, but I think a part of me was REALLY hoping it wouldn’t > happen. Although I remember my last quit and it kicked in around the 2nd or > 3rd day too (although I wasn’t on st johns wort then so it was much much > worse). I’m heading out to the gym in a little while and that should help a > bit. I just did a little bit of yoga and am actually feeling a little bit > better. Yoga’s awesome. I just started it, but it’s so calming. I’ve > never tried acupuncture though. I have thought of it, but I REALLY really > hate needles…so that keeps me well away from it. Although if it ever gets > too bad I’ll look into it. > Thanks PD! :) > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 42 minutes and 9 > seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.49. Life saved: 2 hours, 10 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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> Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes > and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 > hours, 5 minutes.
Not a bad rant, as rants go Sorry about the depression but it sounds like you have a good plan to get past it. Day 3 was my personal worst. — mc I haven’t lost my mind, It is backed up on disk somewhere. http://mcgonzalez.home.att.net/meter.html
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Sounds familiar, I felt just like that! This (mood), too, shall pass. Get back on the SJW, and give it time, it can take a few weeks to start working. Maybe take the patch off at night, for better sleep. Or (this is just an idea I thought of) cut the patch in half, put half on before bed and the other half on when you wake up (if you’re one of those that need the patch on while you sleep). Visualize sawing the nicodemon in half. Cry. Post. You’ll feel better Kita – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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>Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in >(entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now).
Some tips against depression: Stay active. you cannot be depressed if you are doing something. Sit or stand bolt upright and breath deeply. Look straight forward. It’s not possible to feel depressed in this posture. Plan activities for the following weeks. Activities that have to be done as well as recreational ones. >I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and >48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 >minutes.
Wonderful meter. Way to go. Karl
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Hugs for Summer….. ((((((((((((Summer)))))))))))) cigarettes suck quitting sucks It will soon be over, and the sun will shine again, the clouds will blow away, and you will be singing and dancing your way down the street again! With hope and heart, Kathleen *HOF+ — The Road goes ever on and on Down from the door where it began. Now far ahead the Road has gone, And I must follow, if I can, Pursuing it with eager feet, Until it joins some larger way Where many paths and errands meet. And whither then? I cannot say. ~ J.R.R. : Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in : (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). : Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, : but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? : I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for : awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m : just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately : need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home : renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in : and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it : is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to : tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea : retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! : That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. : : Just felt like complaining…sorry all. : : I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and : 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 : minutes. : : — : Cheers : ~Summer~ : * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * : See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg : * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * : :
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Summer P sneezed and it sounded like: – Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to > kick in (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a > week now). Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the > patch. I sleep yes, but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I > wake up after every dream?? I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel > like smacking someone around for awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit > is in no danger because of this, I’m just feeling so totally drained > and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately need some sleep but can’t > because I promised to help mom do some home renovations. She’s too > nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in and said I’d do > the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it is….this > is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to tell > her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! > DUH! That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 > minutes and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life > saved: 2 hours, 5 minutes.
Like the meter. Hate depression. I’m starting to think that may be what trips me up. I’m too stupid on my own, but I had help with this one hehehe. My previous three quits all made it until fall… then I started smoking and I’m SO not a fall person. I’m not clinical in my depression, but it’s definitely blue funk time until the first snow fall or good hard frost and then I tend to snap out of it. lol I’m with you on the patch dreams thing. usually the dreams are merely weird, but maybe due to work stress they’re downright unpleasant this time… and I too seem to be waking up after each one. *sigh* Hang tough. I like seein’ yer meter. — Rich G. http://www.geocities.com/simplerichg/index.html http://simplerich.diaryland.com/ "You can’t go around building a better world for people. Only people can build a better world for people. Otherwise it’s just a cage." — (Terry Pratchett, Witches Abroad)
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> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now).
<snip> > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~
Hang in there, Summer. It’ll get better, you know. All you have to do is not smoke and do all those things that help distract you from it. You’re on your worst day today, IMHO. *hugs* — BinnieBee – A Proud Old Fogie! %% (——) ( >__< ) ^^ ~~ ^^ ~f3as3~ Quit since 11/01/2001 http://photos.yahoo.com/binniebeeus
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Summer P sneezed and it sounded like: > sounds like recovery. > the big thing is…you’re talking about it! > If I didn’t talk about it (even to just myself) I think I’d explode > Frank. I need to get my shitty moods out of my system or I > turndownright evil. :) > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 38 > minutes and 50 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.48. Life > saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes.
ayup. I’m all about that reading and posting thing hehehe folks’ve probly figured out my posting goes up when my resistance goes down. It keeps the fingers busy. Today while road tripping to one of my stores I noticed a roaring noise in my left ear and realized I’d lowered the window a bit when I got in the car… as I always did when I got in, after all, the smoke had to go somewhere didn’t it? LOL I rolled up the window and suddenly the heat in the car seemed to work better hehehe since it weren’t all goin’ out they window I imagine lol. I had a chuckle, then a tic-tack, then a sip of water and another and another… I may never be able to make a long trip again in the car… that or I’ll be lowering the window for a totally different reason LOL. Toooooo much water. I haven’t smoked in: Two days, 22 hours, 59 minutes. That comes to 59 cigarettes not smoked, saving me a whopping $11.09. — Rich G. http://www.geocities.com/simplerichg/index.html http://simplerich.diaryland.com/ "You can’t go around building a better world for people. Only people can build a better world for people. Otherwise it’s just a cage." — (Terry Pratchett, Witches Abroad)
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summer, why not get back on your st. johns wort? why not take that patch off before bed? keep posting and bitching about that damn — read and post daily, it works! rosie The past gives us experience and memories; the present gives us challenges and opportunities; the future gives us vision and hope. –William Arthur Ward
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LOL I can just imagine you peeing out the window! hehehehe… Sorry..tired mind, much vodka…just tickled my funnybone! Paula
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text – > Summer P sneezed and it sounded like: >> sounds like recovery. >> the big thing is…you’re talking about it! > If I didn’t talk about it (even to just myself) I think I’d explode > Frank. I need to get my shitty moods out of my system or I > turndownright evil. :) > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 15 hours, 38 > minutes and 50 seconds. 26 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.48. Life > saved: 2 hours, 10 minutes. > ayup. I’m all about that reading and posting thing hehehe folks’ve probly > figured out my posting goes up when my resistance goes down. It keeps the > fingers busy. > Today while road tripping to one of my stores I noticed a roaring noise in my > left ear and realized I’d lowered the window a bit when I got in the car… as I > always did when I got in, after all, the smoke had to go somewhere didn’t it? > LOL I rolled up the window and suddenly the heat in the car seemed to work > better hehehe since it weren’t all goin’ out they window I imagine lol. > I had a chuckle, then a tic-tack, then a sip of water and another and another… > I may never be able to make a long trip again in the car… that or I’ll be > lowering the window for a totally different reason LOL. Toooooo much water. > I haven’t smoked in: Two days, 22 hours, 59 minutes. That comes to 59 cigarettes > not smoked, saving me a whopping $11.09. > — > Rich G. http://www.geocities.com/simplerichg/index.html > http://simplerich.diaryland.com/ > "You can’t go around building a better world for people. Only people > can build a better world for people. Otherwise it’s just a cage." > — (Terry Pratchett, Witches Abroad)
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Summer, you could always try the ‘Paula’ approach and be virtually beastly! Where’s that bat? Having just ceased a major renovation (not finished – we ran out of cash, and I of energy) I know well the drag. Especially when all around you are smoking like fucking chimneys. Run amuck with an axe – it works a treat. Seriously, tell me more about "St John’s Wort" Iago/Martin One month, two weeks, three days, 16 hours, 29 minutes and 50 seconds. 1430 cigarettes not smoked, saving $498.33. Life saved: 4 days, 23 hours, 10 minutes.
– Hide quoted text — Show quoted text -> Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > (entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Doesn’t help that I’m not sleeping worth a damn on the patch. I sleep yes, > but the bloody dreams!! And why is it that I wake up after every dream?? > I’m depressed, I’m moody and I just feel like smacking someone around for > awhile. Don’t get me wrong, my quit is in no danger because of this, I’m > just feeling so totally drained and it’s driving me nuts. I desperately > need some sleep but can’t because I promised to help mom do some home > renovations. She’s too nervous to use the miter saw so I sort of stepped in > and said I’d do the cutting for her. I didn’t realize what a big job it > is….this is day three of the repairs and I’d like nothing better but to > tell her what she can do with her bloody miter saw. Yeah really good idea > retard, I’m tired and worn out and you want me to use power tools! DUH! > That’s ok..I didn’t like my fingers anyway. > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and > 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 > minutes. > — > Cheers > ~Summer~ > * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * > See me here:
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> Summer, if you are afraid of the needles find an acupuncturist that does > "colorpuncture" Mine does both and btw – the needles do not hurt. I don’t > feel them at all. Yoga should work. I just finished a beginner’s class after > 4 yrs. of absence from practicing yoga because I had a spinal fusion in 1998 > and was forbidden to use any exercises that involved the neck. You are > correct that it helps. I love the breathing exercises as they, if done > properly, help calm the mind. Starting my advanced class this coming Tuesday > this time.
Wow PD…it’s taken me long enough to get back to this…I’m so sorry. I just haven’t had time lately to be reading and posting much and now have 1700+ messages to catch up on! Good lord! I made a note of "colourpuncture" and will definitely look into it if I ever feel like I need it. I have my good and my bad days, although lately it’s been more good than bad. :) I don’t go to a yoga class or anything like that though, I just do it in my own home with a video. One day when I feel comfortable with it, I’ll join a yoga class. I don’t know if it do it properly or well…but it works wonders for calming me down. :) Thanks for the info on acupuncture PD! :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 32 minutes and 7 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.80. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> >Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in > Third day is the worst. Hang in there!
Oh I know it is Christa! :) I hung in and have been feeling pretty good ever since. Thanks! I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 33 minutes and 19 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.81. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> > Just felt like complaining…sorry all. > I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes > and 48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 > hours, 5 minutes. > Not a bad rant, as rants go Sorry about the depression but it sounds > like you have a good plan to get past it. > Day 3 was my personal worst.
Day 3 seems to be the worst day for everyone. I knew it was coming, I guess part of me was really just hoping it wouldn’t. Ah well…it’s passed now and I feel pretty good. :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 34 minutes and 58 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.81. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> Sounds familiar, I felt just like that! > This (mood), too, shall pass.
Oh it did! :) > Get back on the SJW, and give it time, it can take a few weeks to start > working.
I know. I’ve been off and on it for almost a year now and I know how well it works. I take it in combination with b6 and b12 and they work wonders. I still am not back on it though. I need to get up to the drugstore and buy more. I think I’ll do that this week. > Maybe take the patch off at night, for better sleep. Or (this is just an > idea I thought of) cut the patch in half, put half on before bed and the > other half on when you wake up (if you’re one of those that need the > patch on while you sleep).
The dreams have passed. I’m finally sleeping through the night. Thank gawd. I have only had one nightmare with the patch so far…and it was a doozy. I woke up to a soaked pillow and couldn’t seem to stop sobbing. I don’t ever remember having a dream like that before. > Visualize sawing the nicodemon in half.
Hmm…the "nicodemon" idea never really worked for me. I had problems removing my problems from myself and placing them on the shoulders of some infamous "demon". > Cry.
Oh I’ve done lots of that! :) > Post.
Now why didn’t I read this sooner? I’ve been out of AS3 for over a week and I have a zillion and one posts to catch up on. Expect a flood of posts from me tonight. :) > You’ll feel better
I already do. Thanks Kita. I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 40 minutes and 11 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.82. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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> >Well…two and a half days in and the bloody depression decides to kick in >(entirely my fault…been off my st johns wort for over a week now). > Some tips against depression: > Stay active. you cannot be depressed if you are doing something.
sure you can. And I am active. I do yoga and go to the gym and the depression still hangs over me. Granted, it does reduce it. > Sit or stand bolt upright and breath deeply. Look straight forward. > It’s not possible to feel depressed in this posture.
Again….still depressed, just not as badly. :) But I understand where you are coming from. > Plan activities for the following weeks. Activities that have to be > done as well as recreational ones.
Does schoolwork count as activities? LOL I already have a very planned out week, from schoolwork to going to the gym. >I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two days, 12 hours, 50 minutes and >48 seconds. 25 cigarettes not smoked, saving $8.11. Life saved: 2 hours, 5 >minutes. > Wonderful meter. Way to go.
Thanks Karl and thanks for the advice. Although none of it truly eliminates depression, it does help to ease it a bit. And every tiny bit helps. :) I have not smoked a nasty cigarette for Two weeks, 22 hours, 43 minutes and 5 seconds. 149 cigarettes not smoked, saving $47.83. Life saved: 12 hours, 25 minutes. — Cheers ~Summer~ * * * * * * * * * * * * * * * See me here: http://www.geocities.com/summer_soundbytes/fuzzles/niagara2.jpg * * * * * * * * * * * * * * *
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Don’t know anything about the NRT’s, did it cold turkey! 
*hugs* — BinnieBee – Proudly quit for over 11 months now! %% (—-) ( >__< ) ^^ ~~ ^^ ~f3as3~